2025-12-27

In my dreams today I was in my "lab" though it looks old and different and wooden like a highschool science classroom. I see Suzuki, my undergrad clubmate from Teaching Kids Science Experiments Club, for the first time after graduating 5 years ago. In real life he has been accepted to do masters in the Agriculture department right next to my Basic Sciences building so I ask him how he is doing. He seems to be doing chemistry, which makes sense because I think he was good at organic chemistry and was supposed to be researching pesticides. Somehow through our interactions I felt like he was doing very simple stuff and maybe wasting his potential though we didn't talk much in our dream.

Then my labmates and people from other labs were reading a pamphlet which had all the lab introductions for graduate school. After our lab description the pamphlet says "Also, there is one student doing graduate school online." Everyone started to rumor saying "ohhh his desk is still untouched because he's actually still secretly enrolled and continuing!" I didn't get who it was about until I realize that the sentence was not attatched to our lab description specifically but about the whole department. There was one student in the lab next door who entered the same time as me who has stopped coming to the lab for about 2 years.

In real life he was very disliked by the other students and had all these fights. He stopped coming to school after his dad went to jail for hitting his mom and then committing suicide or something and now he had to work to support his family. There's still his desk and things left behind and I was wondering how he was doing. My bully sometimes calls me his "fiance" or some shit just to make fun of me which sucked but I felt bad because he was one of the very few Outsider Japanese who entered from other universities and continued on to PhD just like me. He might have been quick to get angry but I did not know why he was that hated when there is much worse people in my opinion.

Then I woke up once and went to sleep again and had a dream that my lab was in the same building as my high school. I was doing this DNA sequence reading thing and needed to use the sequencing machine. I went to the highschool science lab and asked my then science teacher Mrs. Shaffer if I can use hers. In real life it is hyper expensive so a high school does not have it. She says something like "of course as my friend you are always welcome" which made me uncomfortable because I did not have friends as a high school student and I did not talk with that teacher much though she was considered such a cool teacher. While I was walking though I decided that the sequence machine for high schoolers are not that accurate and that I should use the one my lab uses because that is research grade and proper. The end.